Today as part of our children’s church time we went outside in search of ants.  We took a few steps outside, and we found lots of tiny black ants.

Our lesson centered around Proverbs 6 where we are encouraged to consider the ways of the ant and be wise.  I asked the kids to be hard workers this week like ants.  Some of the ways that the children listed to be a hard worker were helping with the laundry, doing the dishes, and carrying in groceries.

I could glean a lot of wisdom from what I taught the children today.  In five weeks, I will graduate after four years of hard work.  I am so close to seeing my accomplishment fulfilled, and yet I still have a lot of hard work to go.  I have the worse case of senioritiis ever, and I am going to have to dig my heels in a little deeper in order to get to graduation.

My prayer for this week is that the children will be hard workers.  As these children do their best, I hope that others see Jesus in their smiles, giggles, and hugs.  Another prayer of mine is the children will not be so hard on themselves in those moments when they do not their best.  Grace abounds for all.

So on this Sunday afternoon, I thank God for the grace to keep moving toward graduation.  I am hoping for a week where I am a lot like an ant.



Finding Grace in My To Do List

ImageToday I sorted out my to do list into categories: divinity school assignments, children’s ministry responsibilities, presents to buy, financial related tasks, personal responsibilities, house work, and habits I want to incorporate into my daily routines.  In the midst of all that I want to do, I still have to remember that I cannot be all things to all people.  Some tasks will have to wait.  Which tasks do I prioritize?  How do I learn to say, “no” to others?

After reading the list of all Hugh Howell, director and founder of Love Wins, has accomplished in the past forty-eight hours, I am thankful that I do not have that much responsibility.  However, I am struggling to accomplish everything between now and my May 9th graduation.  After graduation, I will have more time for my family and friends.

In the midst of all that I still have left to do, I am thankful that God’s grace is more than sufficient for all of my weaknesses and moments of feeling overwhelmed.  God honors my decisions to choose relationships over tasks, and God sustains me when I have to make difficult decisions.

I look forward to crossing items off my to do list, and I am thankful for grace!

No Goals in March

Each month of 2014 my aim was to set three goals to accomplish for that month while still accomplishing the goals from the previous months also.  However, February was the month where I was down for a week with a cold.  Then the following weekend I was hit with a stomach virus.  When I do not feel well, I am very unmotivated. 

Nonetheless, with the exception of one day, I kept my goal of spending time with God before I got on Facebook.  Often I was able to set aside this time first thing in the morning.  Spending time with God has strengthened me.  I will indeed keep this as a part of my routine as I move forward.

One of my other goals for February was to read for fun twice a week.  I did read a lot more for fun in February, but this usually only happened once a week toward the end of the month.

My other goal of blogging three times a week derailed, and so I have come back to blog word with hesitations.  Do I have anything to offer?  Why spend time writing when the laundry is piled high?  How do I juggle all my responsibilities, especially homework, while actively posting blogs?  I write because I have a passion to write.  The only way that I can improve as a writer is to write.  When life gets in the way of my writing, I will just have to push harder to type words out on paper and share my voice.

My intent with this post is to keep things real.  This believer, new wife, children’s pastor, preschool teacher, nanny, divinity school student, family member, and friend is struggling to juggle a lot of stuff.  Unfortunately, a lot of this stuff keeps me awake at night when I should be asleep.  I need your prayers as I press forward toward my May 9th graduation, become the person that God has created me to be, and  cast a vision for the children’s ministry at my church. 

So my new goal for March is to be honest.  I do not plan to over disclose my life with others, but I will answer honestly when others ask how I am doing.  I will model for others how to live with reasonable transparency within community.  I will honestly say, “no” to commitments that take away from my time with Adam or time I need to take care of myself.  I honestly am not setting any goals for March, and I am ok with that….at least I am trying to be.