Grief

I know of friends and family who are grieving all kinds of losses: loss of a close family member or friend, loss of a friendship, loss of employment…and the list goes on and on.

I am still grieving a loss that happened seven years a go.  I have struggled with so many emotions and questions.  How long can you grieve?  What is the right way to grieve?  Why does God let some people die the way that they do?  Why does God watch as those I love suffer?  Of course I have no answers to some of these questions.

My walk with God has gone deep into valleys during my journey of grief.  Still God remains in my life even on days when I am angry at God or can barely even sense God’s closeness.

Recently, many people who care about me have challenged me to be more honest and real about how I really feel.  So writing this blog is an attempt to let others know a little more about my experiences with grief.

And if you find yourself grieving this morning, I want you to know that I am sorry for your loss.  If we were sitting face to face over coffee, I would listen to you.  I would allow you to say the same things over and over again if that is what you needed.  Or we could just sit silently and be fully present with one another.   I know that I might try to rush you into feeling better, and if I start to do that, please tell me stop.  I honor your honesty with me so that I can be the best friend possible.

Everyone experiences grief, even Jesus.  The Bible says, “Jesus wept!” (John 11:35).  And so if Jesus wept and grieved, I think I will give myself permission to do the same.

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Hunger

Recently, as in two weeks a go, I started working at First Baptist Church in Kernersville as the Minister of Children & Missions.  Immediately, I gained an awareness of how children are hungry.  These children (and their families) live close to the church where I work and not in some remote third world country.  I am no longer unaware of the hunger that exists in my own back yard especially after a training I attended this past week at the Second Harvest Food Bank.

So what am I going to do about hungry families?  I have mastered the skill of feeling burdened and overwhelmed, but what I will do to be part of the solution?  Prayer!  Yes, praying is the natural Christian Sunday School answer to any issue, but seriously, I want to pray that God would guide me on how to be a part of the solution.  I want to pray that others will become passionate about how to help others.  So much suffering, pain, and hunger exists in our world.  Each of us has a responsibility to be agents of reconcilitation in our world in whatever way God leads us.

I hunger to be a person of prayer and action.  I hunger to speak up for children!